Looking forward

It has been emo months for me to forget about you. Until a moment that i came to my conscience, why am i sad & emo while you're happy with someone else? That question hit me. So i started to tell myself. LET GO! I started to less to think of you. Since you're happy, so fine. I need to find my happiness as well. I want to forget everything about you and i. Since it's meaningless now. I want to start a new life in a new place. I want to further my studies and i hope God will open the way for me. i really really hope. but gotta take IELTS first. I need to leave those memories behind and look forward for something that's great ahead me

Why can't i?

I just can't forget you. You stuck in my head! urghhhh! I know you're not mine and you're someone else's. I should forget you. but it's just so hard. :'(
I miss you so bad :'(

Letting go is painful

Dear you,

I love you, there's an obstacle between us. It's hard, sorry if i let you down. Maybe we just go our own path for the benefits of us. I feel the pain, i dunno about you. maybe you feel it or maybe not. Maybe we just need to pray to God to direct own paths. Let His will be done in our life. I dunno if you are mine, and if i am yours. Just pray ok? I just hope that you continue to love God more and more. I hope that your Mr. Right will lead you to love God more and more. Whether the Mr. right is me or other people, it's ok. Remember to love God more ok? i just care about you. I just wanna say i love you, it's ok if you don't love. You holds an important place in my heart.

Love,

Your lover

God speaks

I was driving back to home after sending my friend back to her home. I was to God for something-need Him to open the way. I was anxious about and so i started to pray. I was playing the song "Ocean will part" by Hillsong. He speaks to me in the chorus part:

If my heart has grown cold
There Your love will unfold
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand
When I'm blind to my way
There Your Spirit will pray
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/h/hillsong_music_australia/oceans_will_part.html ]
Chorus:

Oceans will part nations come
At the whisper of Your call
Hope will rise glory shown
In my life Your will be done

Present suffering may pass
Lord Your mercy will last
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand
And my heart will find praise
I'll delight in Your way
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand

God told me, "I will open up the way for you, I can make the oceans part. What is impossible for me? Nothing. At the whisper of My word, things done. There will be hope, just trust in Me. My Glory will be shone. In your life Chris, My Will will be done."

His words comforted me a lot. I just wanna share this to encourage you guys to trust God. For in Him, nothing is impossible. Even though i have not seen the things yet, but i trust in my Jesus. He is trustworthy.

Jeremiah 29:11

For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future